" If Cupid had A Heart "

" If Cupid had A Heart "

I should feel disgust towards you I should feel hatred towards you why don't I?
I thought I could just not love you anymore just leave you be
but the moments the memories my love for you didn't make this easy
sometimes I curse cupid for making me love you so....
sometimes I want to tell you I love you more than you'll ever know
it's not worth it I can't tell you how I feel...
cause either way with my suffering I would have to deal
so I sit here in this empty room with my wrist bleeding wanting to die....
how can love be so horrible so cruel so...just blind and after all it's a lie....
then I think of you...you made me so cynical so....numb....it's all you....
the days aren't worth living the hours aren't worth counting....
I want the world to waste away...just like me...I'm nothing but a waste.
why wouldn't you love....me....It's just not worth it....
I cant hold on anymore....Congratulations you've let me jaded and rejected...
I HATE YOU!.